Why I am no longer vegan.

Phew. That’s one nasty title, isn’t it? It’s been 3 years? I don’t even know anymore. I could spend hours tying up excuses, reasons and other nonsense that would “justify” this just so I could sleep better at night. Honestly all it is, at the core, I’m just really fu*king selfish. I could say how much I struggle with my mental health, BED and restrictiveness is a trigger for me. I could blame the toxicity of the movement at times especially by those “radical psycho grass eaters”. I could. But I’m not going to. Truth is, I’m a hypocrite. It’s…

50 things that make me happy pt.2.

When I originally wrote the first post of 50 things that make me happy I actually really struggled with it because it’s very difficult to put yourself in that ‘positive head space’. So here’s part two. I’m starting to write this February 13th, 2017. Let’s see, how long this time it takes me to finish it this time. Working out/ exercising. Decluttering. Writing. Meal prepping. Long walks/hikes. Strawberries. Being outdoors. Picnics. Tan line free body. Pandas and panda videos. (I am still working on how to adopt a pet panda and hide it from my landlord. Any suggestions are welcome!)…

Basically palm oil sucks.

When I first went vegan, I was very honest about my decision – I kind of like this planet a little too much to continue destroying it. I’ve embarked another journey, this one I had struggled with in the past but I am determined to come out of it a new woman. Insert the absolute evil: palm oil. Turns out palm oil not only is one of the main causes of deforestation but it’s also a disaster for endangered wildlife such as orangutans and tigers. Basically palm oil sucks. Unfortunately, it is also really cheap therefore used in nearly half…

Tickle my fancy: Spring

YouTube: BBC three mini documentaries Music: Black Panther soundtrack (Kendrick Lamar won the Pulitzer prize in April). My current Spotify playlist can be found here. Movie: Avangers Infinity War Book: Johann Hari ‘Lost Connections’ Food: Morrison’s Dark Chocolate & Raspberry Rice Cakes. OMG YOU NEED TO HAVE THESE! Tool: MyFitnessPal. It’s not new, but I’ve recently started dieting so this helps me relitively stay on top of things. Victory: Couple weeks palm oil free. Yes, I have given up Oreos. Cringe attack / pick-up line: Can you touch my hand? I want to tell my friends I’ve been touched by an angel….

Fat is just an adjective just like a middle finger is just a body part. I am fat and here’s my midle finger to society.

fat (adj.) (of a person or animal) having a large amount of excess flesh. (of an animal bred for food) made plump for slaughter. containing much fat. large in bulk or circumference. used ironically to express the belief that something is unlikely or does not exist. – From google dictionary I am fat. There I said it. Now get over it. It’s a fact. Point blank. I honestly don’t understand the avoidance of the word ‘fat’. I mean you’re either thin or fat, these are two antonyms just like big and small. It’s just an adjective. I have never naturally…

Tickle my fancy: fall

YouTube: I Love You Jesus Music Video – Trisha Paytas (Because only Trisha can have a video about her sugar daddy experiences and then this… I mean. Queen. Brain fart.) Movie: Lolita Tool: Double Check For Vegans (ingredient check) Instagram: BoopMyNose Twitter: Thoughts of Dog Stand up: Frenchy (especially this set) Tip: coconut oil for makeup removing, if like me you struggle with dry skin in the winter. Product: SIMS pet edition (Dan and Phil playing it) Pickup line: What’s your favorite silverware? Because I like to spoon! Murder mystery: The murder of JonBenét Ramsey. For this that I know of my low-key disturbing serial killer…

Mental wellbeing. Hi, I’ve started therapy.

There is a certain stigma that follows mental illness, especially where I come from. Having mental issues is seen as phony and shameful. I think in a lot of ways society fails those with mental disorders because of these stereotypes and the momentum of ‘just suck it up’. In truth, mental health is much broader than your ‘typical’, ‘average’, ‘popular’, ‘common’ or ‘more known of’ mental issues like depression, anxiety, eating disorders or more serious illnesses like narcissism, schizophrenia etc. Mental wellbeing is not a leprechaun at the end of the rainbow bridge that everyone without a mental disorder magically crosses….